My Brother,
I have realized that I love you too much to allow your passing to be a lingering darkness.
For you, I will not have your legacy bring me only sadness.
I will not allow my thoughts and memories of you to bring me only to tears.
While thinking of you, I will remember to smile.
For you, I will not allow your passing to deteriorate me. I have accepted the fact that it has changed me, broken me, even completely shattered my heart.... but it has also refocused me. It has completely altered my thinking and it has showed me my true strength.
For you, I am willing to work on shifting my grieving, to honoring you the way that I know how- being the best mom, daughter, sister and wife that I can be.
I will live my life as though I am looking at it through your lens, your point of view.
For you, I will continue to work on moving forward. I know that you wouldn't want us living our remaining lives broken.
I love you way too much, and for that reason, I will try to live my life happily and find the joy in every single moment. You are worth all of that! I love you that much, to take my selfishness out of my grief and to continue with my journey, because I know that you are here riding the wave with me.
I love you so much!